Spacing out...huh?

Okay, so this might actually be a relatively short entry...ha ha....


So this weekend I don't really have tons going on, just working and house sitting for one of my professors. At work today I started spacing out again about being alone/ death....When will this end!!! Ack! This is sooooo frustrating! If this is part of being an adult/ having thoughts of lonliness and death pop into my head, man have I got my work cut out for me.


I was given a book called Precious Bible Promises from my mom, who got it as a gift from my dad in 92'. I carry it with me always now. It definitely has been extremely useful. I don't know why my brain keeps plugging in these thoughts of loneliness and death....they seem to occur when I'm alone mostly, and that would definitely qualify at the moment since I'm at work. I don't really have anything social planned for this weekend, so that doesn't help much. But whenever these thoughts get in my head I pull out my Precious Bible Promises and start reading. The sections I find myself looking at most of the time are Faith, In Faith & Trust, In Maturity, In Security, In Finding His Will, In Times of Fear, In Times of Loneliness. Basically all of these titles sum up what runs through my head whenever I am lonely. It stinks, not gonna lie.


"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love." -1 John 4:18


"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" -Psalm 27:1


"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." -Isaiah 41:10


As usual, my sinful human nature is struggling with my faith. These thoughts are normal, but I can't focus on them. God has given me a specific purpose, and if I choose to focus on these fears, A. I won't be living in the land of the living and B. my job won't get done. Can I just say that I love this faith blog! God has given it to me as a gift, as a way of putting out my thoughts so I can see them outside of my head. By the time I finish writing and reread what I've written, I have such a peace about what God says to me in His word. What an awesome guy! Ah....I feel so much better already . And to make myself feel even better I'm gonna go look at my planner.........yup, I am pretty much full through Thursday next week. What an amazing God who knows what I need and when I need it. He provides me with fantastic friends and activites to help me in overcoming my fears that pop into my head. Maybe I should get a different view point on death. Maybe everytime a fearful thought about death pops into my head I should think of a plus. Example, death is when I finally get to be reunited with my maker and spend eternity with Him in paradise. Death can also be a welcomed release from this sinful and dreary world. I can think of all the people who are already in paradise with Christ, think of the people there waiting for me. Wow, what a different perspective! God can use my crazy thoughts for good, haha!


To end this entry I've got 2 more verses....I hope you all have a good day and I'll be back soon, Hugs to all!



"Be stron and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." -Deuteronomy 31:6


"Therefore you now have sorrow; but I will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you." -John 16:22