Well my week has been interesting for sure....whew....
The week started off just fine, especially on Tuesday. I took my little from BBBS to her first choir concert and she loved it! I also found out that this girl hasn't seen loads of Disney movies, including The Little Mermaid!!! Crazy! So now I'm on a mission to Disney-fy this child. Well, none of my voice students showed up for their voice lessons on Wednesday, so that stunk. Thursday I found an apartment that filled every need I had and I reserved it. I was very grateful that God supplied my need, but I really hate having to move, not just because of the moving itself, but because I really like my apartment that I have. If it wasn't for the gas/ commute, I wouldn't be moving at all. So I kind of had buyer's remorse after putting down my non-refundable $100 for the new place. Also on Thursday my church membership was transfered to St. Andrew's from my home church Holy Cross in KCMO, which is a huge deal for me since Holy Cross was the center of my life until I left for college and it's been hard knowing that it isn't the same parish I grew up with, leaving those memories and moving on was/is difficult for me....Low and behold Thursday night (I'm house sitting Thurs-Sat) I come down with something yucky. I woke up Friday sore all over and drainage running down a dry sore throat, gah....The ironic part is that I am house sitting/ watching 3 girls that are a Christian Science family. Christian Scientists don't believe in disease....and hence forth they don't believe in medicine....wah....So I went into work later since Tobi was willing to cover part of my shift, and I felt like poo....tried to sleep as much as possible today and went into work and still feel like poo....and work has been insane today....unhappy guests to smoke alarms, joy.....
Long story short I really had no fun time this week, everything felt like work. I realized this week that I NEED to make time through out the week for myself so I'm not driving myself to physical and spiritual exhaustion, hence forth why I am probably sick. I also found out that my great aunt Minnie passed away on Wednesday. I wasn't very close to her and I didn't get to see her very often, but I still treasure the memories of the few visits I had with her from when I was young. Two stand out in my mind, one when I was in elementary school and another when I was in middle school. I still remember the cards she sent me and the one thing I will always remember were her hands. They were beautiful, she took pride in having her nails painted and her hands soft. These memories may not seem like much to you, but no matter how small or short the memory is, it still reminds me of her warm spirit. It makes me feel that I could have done more to enrich her life. I could have called her, written her letters and sent cards. It's times like this that I realize how selfish I can be.
God created our bodies to let us know when we are working them too hard. Guess this is my wake up call. A small price to pay, but a lesson worth learning.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." -Matthew 11:28-29
Basically it has come to my realization that I still don't let God have full control. Despite the fact that I really don't have any control over anything, when I think that I have some say in things, they get worse. I look at the things in my life that I put so much of my energy into. It seems like I'm putting my energy to waste a lot of the time. I pour out my affection on people who don't want or care for it, things I want instead of focusing on others' needs, etc. I shouldn't put my time and energy into these frivolous worldly cares. What I do need to put my energy into is the well being of others. I need to re-establish what it means to be a servant, but in the right way. Yes I need to make time to rest my body and soul, but at the same time when I do "work", I need to put my energy to better use.
"Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me." -John 12:26
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