Need to calm my spirit

Okay kids, here goes....


I went to a new church today, I'm still hunting for a new church home. I went to Central Community Christian Church off of Ridge and Maple. I felt extremely uncomfortable during the worship part of the service, despite the fact that it was the traditional service vs the contemporary. I enjoyed the sermon, especially since the pastor STAYED IN THE BIBLE THE WHOLE TIME! It seems that churches today like to tell stories about personal experience and poems and so forth for sermons instead of being in the word. It's been very frustrating for me in this whole finding a new church home deal due to this. I liked the sermon and felt uncomfortable for the other half of the service, so it's kind of a "well huh" decision right now for me. I'm still poking around a few different churches. I don't feel that I should put a rush on it. And even though it's so hard to go by myself into a new church where I know absolutely no one, it's a process that needs to be done. I also can't have these expectations that I'm going to feel right at home the first time I go to any church. It takes time to build those relationships.


So again I'm at work, and yet again alone for the most part. I am having those lonely feelings again, similar to yesterdays, but not the same. Today I feel lonely because of the whole church home shopping bit. It's sooooooooooo hard! Now I'm beginning to fully appriciate the sound church home I had in KCMO. It would make this so much better if I had someone to go with me, but on a side note...No one is going to hold my hand when I go to meet my maker, so suck it up Mandy! (he he) As harsh as the truth is, it's the truth and I've got to learn to be a big girl, step up to the plate, and do what God requires of me....and that means overcoming my fear of being alone.

But that is the neat part, I'm never alone because He's with me always!


"The LORD had said to Abram, 'Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you.' " -Genesis 12:1


"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye." -Psalm 32:8


"Commit you works to the Lord, and your thoughts will be established." -Proverbs 1:23

So basically I just need to focus on Him and listen to what He speaks to my heart. He will make it clear the way I should go, and that includes my future church home. Keep me in your prayers as I go further on in the search for where God wants me to be! Hugs!