Ack!!!

So 2 things are bothering me immensely at the moment......


****this entry is not directed at any one specific person, so just let me rant****


1) People who are depressed and cynical all the time and find no joy in life/ pick on others and make fun of their happiness


2) People who don't understand what I stand for living a Christian lifestyleSo frustrating today!


Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that I'm a pushover or won't "do anything with my life". I know that I'm heading in the right direction for my life. With God it's all or nothing, PERIOD! He has given me the gift of music, and I love performing. I feel that it is what he has called me to do. I've still got another 2 years before I get my Bachelor's and another 3 years for Grad school. I'm doing what I know I need to be doing this semester. I'm not auditioning for the fall opera because I'm sick of Gilbert and Sullivan and Iolanthe isn't a show that people will ooo and ahh over on my resume. I need to start looking at grad schools! I want to take the time to learn senior recital rep this year, but really attack new repetoire this semester and start finding audition arias. I need to be able to work to support myself. And most importantly find a church home and soon.


JUST BECAUSE I'M A PERFORMER DOESN'T MEAN THAT I HAVE TO BE A JERK OR NOT LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I KNOW GOD WISHES.


People are so afraid of Christians and the lifestyle we've been called to lead. They think that if we are living the godly lifestyle that we must not be enjoying life or doing what we truly desire....NOT TRUE! They also seem to think that it's a cop out. It's NOT! I feel that I consistantly have to shout from the rooftops to get people to understand why I live my life by these standards. It's not hard to understand if you just let your guard down and open your eyes. Anyone who knows me well can tell that this is the happiest I've been in YEARS!


Secondly, I'm sick and tired of people who are depressed and cynical! How dare you make fun and rip apart someone else's happiness? It is a choice to be happy, A CHOICE! You can choose to let past circumstances dictate your life and be miserable, or you can get over it and move on! Find the things in life that make you happy and just do them! If there's one phrase I've heard over and over again is that someone has had it worse than you. It's true, so stop feeling sorry for yourself and get over it!WAH! I'm sorry that this has been a rather downer entry, but I know that these things aren't of God. I live following His example in hopes that people can see the difference. Being a Christian is not a guarentee that life will be easy, it's actually more of a guarentee that life will be harder. We will be put through trials, and that includes people hurting our feelings and telling us we don't "have our head on straight".


"Hearken unto me, ye that know righteousness, the people in whose heart is my law; fear ye not the reproach of men, neither be ye afraid of their revilings. For the moth shall eat them up like a garment, and the worm shall eat them like wool: but my righteousness shall be for ever, and my salvation from generation to generation" (Isaiah 51:7, 8)


"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth. Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us" (Romans 8:1, 33, 34)


I know that God will help me get over my anger and frustrations. I will continue to live th life He has called me to live and the life I WANT to live. To close I want to leave with one of my favorite scriptures that my dad introduced me too.


"He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God" -Micah 6:8