Faith Blog: Revelations from God

Well, as many of you can see based on the title of this blog, I have officially decided to make this my faith blog. From now on this blog, I hope, will be a daily journal of my walk and revelations from God that He shows me through out my day and walk with Him. This one will be rather a random and possibly long entry, so just know that the reason is because of all the excitement and wonder I feel because of His presence.


First things first...I have decided to quit one of my church jobs. I love the people there, but I know that I need to be fed. I have been malnurished for several years now because I took a job instead of finding a church home with fellow believers and being fed with God's word. So that being said....I will then have my Wednesday nights and every other Sunday morning completely free to go to church and biblestudy. On the Sundays that I work at the other church job, I can go to an 8am service at a Lutheran church. Despite the fact that I'm going to more than likely be going to 2 different churches, I'm okay with it for now. I am also looking at getting together a women's biblestudy group for a Monday or Tuesday night. And on a random side note, I'm going to paint scripture all over my bedroom walls. I did pay a $50 redecorating fee and I am allowed to paint whatever color I want in my apartment, so why not. It will be constant reminders of God's mercy, promises, grace, and countless blessings.
I STILL can't put down His Word.


"For you were like sheep going astray, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls." - 1 Peter 2:25


"My soul melts from heaviness; strengthen me according to Your word." -Psalm 119:28



And my personal favorite two gifts of the day-
"That the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith-the salvation of your souls." -1 Peter1:7-9


"For we walk by faith, not by sight." - 2 Corinthians 5:7



How about those words of comfort and promise? Pretty amazing ey? My mother gave me a book that my dad gave to her. It's Precious Bible Promises and I've carried it with me everywhere since I got it. Even though I still have inner struggles with fear about what the future may bring and my mortality, I just know that these thoughts aren't of God. I pull out that book and read those promises and words of comfort and guidance that I so desperately crave. I have cried sooooooooo much in these past few days. These have been tears of many a mixed emotion. I've cried out of fear, repentance, joy, thanksgiving, and sometimes just being in awe of His presence and almighty power.


I can't tell you how changed I feel. Remember in my last post when I had said I wanted to grow little again, well I just did. I feel the way I used to feel when I was in elementary school, but in a whole new magnified level. Yes I grew up in a Christian home and I loved the Lord and could rattle off Bible verses. But now that I'm maturing and becoming more of an adult, these precious words have such a new meaning for me. The tears are welling up yet again for the 3rd time today as I write this. It's a mix of emotion. Shame for how far I'd pushed myself away from Him and how I really have not been leading the life He requires of me, tears from being grateful for hitting me over the head with a frying pan, if you will, and allowing me to see my need for Him...how DESPERATELY I need Him....tears of thanksgiving for my amazing family, parents, former teachers that I spent time with today, for my little sister and my goddaughter, for precious time that I've been given with these people, and last but definitely not least tears of awe of His majesty. The scripture that touches the depths of my soul that give me such comfort. I am so unworthy of such a love, but that is grace :) which humbles me all the more.
He gave me a fantastic metaphore today. As some of you know my family owns 2 cats here in KCMO, Shadow and Callie. Shadow was "my" cat and Callie was my sister's cat. The atypical expression involving cats is that we don't own cats, we are their slave, which if you have ever truly known a cat's nature, it's spot on! My little sister was dog sitting for a friend of the family's this weekend while I've been home, a little Yorkie named Oliver. I've dog sat before and they require so much more attention than cats. Cats are extremely independent. You can call them all day but they won't come to you until they are good and ready. But this little dog was sooooooooo needy! He was always running around my little sister and the rest of our family, wanting to play, wanting to cuddle, go to the bathroom, be fed, or just flat out be near us. Our cats go to the bathroom on their own, can go days without seeing us, and will only come when they want to be cuddled. It hit me today how this image is such a strong one of my faith recently. I was a cat for the longest time; extremely independent, could "take care of myself", and wouldn't do anything till I was ready to. Honestly, I need to be more like a dog, as odd as it sounds, haha....I need to be dependent on God for EVERYTHING! For my spiritual food, for the playtime or joy in my life, to have him take me so I can be relieved, and always want to be touched by Him and be in His presence. When an owner calls their dog, the dog comes running, at least more so than I've seen cats run to their owners. When God calls if I'm not where He wants me to be, I should come running!!! That's the kind of energy I should live my life with....be the ADHD little dog for God, he he. I need to be in His Word DAILY and follow my conscience/heart which is the Holy Spirit working in me so that I can fufill the plan He has for my life.


It was said to me by a dear family friend while I was here that God put me here for a specific purpose that only I can do and if I am focused on my thoughts of fear, the job won't get done.
So that being said, goals to strive for with God's help:


*Stop focusing on fears, be in His Word daily, find new church home/ put in notice at old job, lead the life God wants me to lead, talk to Him all the time, discover what His plan is for me and follow it with a whole heart


That being all written, kudos to you all who read this, brava! I'm off to sleep secure in my faith. God bless you and keep you!